Welcome to myself....and whoever else reads this...

Well isn't this interesting..I think this is a dream come true for someone like me to who has so much to say about everything and never (actually rarely)  has the platform to speak my thoughts because they are mine, unfiltered, NOT politically correct, and certainly not the norm.  I'm a 35 year old (sexy, in my opinion, not my husbands- what it's true, I get more looks from the men on the street then I do from him when I'm naked!)woman with four kids, a new husband, an ex-husband blah blah blah....I remind myself often that it's all just temporary and I'm just passing through.  So, this is my first post of something that I have to say but I'm just going to say this..for now.  I have lived an interesting life.  I got married at age 18 and had four kids within two years of each other.  I was married to a wonderful man and a great father.  He was a little strange but looking back I was at the time too, not now of course, I'm totally normal, whatever that is!  He was in the Air Force and we moved all over, I loved my life.  But, for some reason I was discontent.  I didn't really know why but I made a lot of mistakes trying to get out of that relationship, even though there was really nothing wrong with it.  Maybe I just needed to be on my own for awhile to learn some things I didn't get the chance to learn with him, maybe I was just selfish and didn't know what I wanted.  But instead of following what I knew to be right, I got a divorce.  Probably one of the biggest mistakes of my life, especially how I went about it all, just the TOTALLY wrong way and who pays..the kids!  So, God got a hold of me and straighten me out!  Fast forward 6 years later here I am.  Re-married to a man, my husband, Russ.  Russ is a good man and truthfully had no idea what he was getting himself into with four kids ( ages 10b, 12g, 15g, 17b).  The boys live with their dad, step-mom, and step-sister in Omaha and me, Russ, and the girls live in Virginia.  I wish I would have known that I would be split up from my kids and this whole thing would have played out differently but I thought I would have them with me forever...well at least until they were 18.  So now I have played the divorce (not a) game I would not wish on my worst enemy, actually I don't wish anything on anyone bad..normally.  Except for this dip shit (yes, I swear sometimes, I'm trying to stop) I work with.  Other than that, no one.  Well I am back in school working to get my psychology degree and I will be in done in August.  I find it interesting that I decide to start a blog when I take on two classes, I will do ANYTHING other than my homework, until the last minute.  So it's NOT the last min now and I'm going to get disciplined and get it done...so until I post again....enjoy your human experience...oh and why I picked that name, you ask?  We are all all spirits having only a human experience, lucky us!!  :)